Have you ever lost your nerve?

New moon greetings, friend -

As you perhaps know, I launched a new website a couple weeks ago.

Siderealchemy is a name that actually came to me years ago. At the time, I didn't know its purpose, just that it wanted to connect.

(Fun fact - I am someone who often has names at the ready. I never had a list of names of future children, but I definitely have a list of names of future projects.

And since I'm sharing that with you, I'll go ahead and admit [gulp] that I already have names for at least 3-4 albums and 1 book. Now you know [eek!]; now I need to be that much more accountable to myself to create.)

When I decided to start offering intuitive sessions, I knew immediately that I didn't want to use myname[dot]com. This work isn't about me. This is about YOU - strengthening your intuition, amplifying who you are, showing up fully in the world. Naming this for myself felt super cringe-worthy.

So I looked at that word/name list I keep, and I realized Siderealchemy had been waiting for me. Good to go, I thought. That's the name.

I was so ready, so excited to embrace this name that had revealed itself to me years ago —

And then I froze. I completely, utterly lost my nerve.

You know how this goes, right? You have the perfect idea; you know how to execute it; you talk yourself out of it, day after day after day.

And so I did. My ego is EXPERT at creating new excuses.

Finally, after feeling so ick that this work was still under myname[dot]com, I followed the advice that I often give in intuitive sessions: Do 1 thing.

Do 1 thing. Doesn't have to be the biggest thing. Or even a significant step. But just do 1 thing.

So I did.

And it ended up being the nudge that catalyzed the entire process:

It was messy and tedious. Though now that I'm on the other side, I feel like an expert :)

The magical part is how the universe met me.

The day that I did the 1 thing, I got a package later that evening. A friend had sent me some scarves and jewelry that she thought I'd like. I pawed through the box and found a necklace with a key as a pendant. I have a thing about keys—a whole 'nother story than this one. I didn't like the necklace, but I did like the key. So I detached it from the necklace and saw the details for the first time:

If you read my previous love letter, you know that I'm a quadruple Leo. (Lions have always been a thing for me. Like keys, a whole 'nother story.)

Seeing this key really made me catch my breath—2 symbols that have meant so much to me, a few hours after I started a gigantic process I'd been avoiding.

What a blessing from the universe, right? I felt so much relief and joy when this landed in my hands.

But there's another reason this key made me catch my breath:
I already had it:

Years ago, when I was first starting to explore my spiritual gifts, my intuitive abilities, I wanted to have some things to put on an altar or wear around my neck. At a flea market, I came across a key with a lion. As you know, that resonated. So, I paid a couple dollars and wore it around my neck for a few years. (Eventually it migrated to an altar.)

Now I have another lion key. And if you look carefully, the teeth are the same. They open the same lock.

So, to recap this day when I did 1 thing:
Someone gave me a key, and I already had it.

Now that I've had a few weeks to reflect, I realize that this is a beautiful metaphor for the work I do. I have keys.

But they are not to open your locks for you. They show you the keys that you have. Sometimes those keys might look similar, but not necessarily. (Mine are identical because they're both for me.)

I truly believe that no one can heal you or save you but you. Others on your journey hold space, share wisdom, support your growth. But YOU have the keys, always.

Yes, sometimes there are things that I can tap into more easily than you. Often I have perspective that you can't access until we have a session. But I'm not giving your something; I'm showing you what's already present and available to you.

All of this to say — when you lose your nerve, I hope you show up anyway. Find your keys, or have someone show you what you already have. Do the 1 thing. Take the risk, be vulnerable. Do the 1 thing, and then the next, and then the next. You won't regret it. And somewhere along the way, the universe will meet you.

With keys jangling,
S.



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she / they
Siderealchemy