sharing is a kind of ripening

Full moon howls, friend -

This moon cycle has been a wild ride for me. I set the intention a couple weeks ago, with the new moon, of digging into some parts of mySelf that I've long buried, that I haven't wanted to admit to others.

Well, you know how that inquiry goes — it brings up AAAAAALLLLLL the shame and fear and unworthiness, about who you are, inherently, as yourSelf.

Sooooo fun!, amirite?

Maybe not fun, but at least I can already see the beauty in the muck. I'm grateful for that gift.

The reason I'm already seeing the beauty is because I took an uncomfortable step, as we were moving towards full moon — I shared in a FB group about how I've been struggling. My icky thoughts of how f%&cked up my brain is. How unworthy I feel about receiving sympathy or support.

[shudder] It was a rough thing to write. But I reminded myself that the full moon is with me.

And the thing is - once I shared, all the love and support rushed in. People who shared perspectives and things to learn, who expressed support, who encouraged me to love myself more.

Wow. I was hiding under the proverbial table, hands over my eyes, peeking through the gaps in my fingers.

But now I'm standing, wandering around, occasionally even dancing a little, about these awkward and uncomfortable things.

They're still awkward and uncomfortable. But I'm not afraid of them anymore.

Why? Because I moved with the moon. I let my sharing be a kind of ripening.

And natural cycles work. I didn't need to muster up the courage alone. I let mySelf be carried by the moon, the same way the moon moves the tides. (The human body is about 70% water, just like the earth. We too have tides.)

At this full moon, I encourage you to see how sharing might be a kind of ripening for you.

I use "kind" deliberately. We live in a lot of cultural norms about shame and weakness, especially in regards to being emotional or revealing struggles.

But struggles aren't shameful.

So when I say that sharing is a KIND of ripening, I also mean that sharing is a kind[ness] — a kind, loving way of ripening.

How does that light shine for you? How much more could you let in?

Still howling,
S.

PS - I'm not trying to vaguebook, so much as I'm not clear and don't have the words yet to express what's happening. But I'll have more kinds of sharing eventually, for sure.

PPS - You know I'm still offering 1:1 sessions, right? More info here.

—
she / they
Siderealchemy